Almost-Kiss Sketches
She smells so warm and soft in her pajamas, even from this far away. From the bar stool at her kitchen counter, you watch her scoop perfect crescents of strawberry ice cream into two matching bowls. She arranges each curl like a rose petal, nesting them tight and parallel.
The pink tip of her tongue peeks through her lips - flushed where she bites it in concentration.
You curl your toes around the foot ring of your stool. It’s summer, and though it’s finally dark out, the room feels sticky-hot, as if the oven were switched on. And you’re lightheaded all of a sudden - is it the heat? - and everything grows a little hazy, shivering with heat waves, except for that sliver of tongue, that pretty pink mouth, when she licks a fleck of ice cream from her fingertip.
I want to kiss you, you think, and something in you freezes.
But you brush the thought from your brow, wiping clean the film of sweat that has gathered there, and reach for the bowl she offers, smiling, to you.
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She smells so warm and soft in her pajamas
and everything grows a little hazy
except for that sliver of tongue
that pretty pink mouth
her hair is shellacked to her neck and temples
curls of lavender-scented steam rise
water soft for her
soft oily water you’ve slid over her skin
you let your gaze drift back to her open mouth as your fingers dig
she whimpers: her lips shiver with the sound
you watch her – her throat
her soft mouth – just there – until she opens her eyes
the room drowns with darkness
you are free to find her again by that warm-soft smell
and the glow of her skin
your lips brushing the soft patch that slopes into her breast
tonight, that soft place is bare where your lips press
bare and unbearably fragrant
eyes shut, you imagine darting your tongue out –
a tentative proboscis - and tasting just a mote of it
your heartbeat undulates
deep and strong as a seashell-ocean;
your ear pressed to Brittany’s shoulder counterpoints
with the undercurrent of her sleeping breath
she collects these beads of you, ardently,
and keeps them in perfect rows
she slides her tongue over the roof of her mouth
the way she does when she’s slipping something into place
you want to kiss her so badly it hurts
but even as you hover - a hummingbird - a little closer –
your thoughts translucent with wingbeat frenzy –
your breath catches
and you lose your nerve
her smile is strange and soft then
you hear the murmur of her breath grow chant-like
she seems to know what’s coming
and she softens
and the only sound in the room is a single light-quick heartbeat